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I'd Rather Be Dead Than 40

by HALF CAB

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1.
Not The Same 02:43
I will try to keep you close to me until I drop the ball. But my hands are tied, my eyes are closed and my back’s against the wall. What it tastes like. What it feels like. I can’t really find my way. I just seem to disappoint you. And it leads me astray. We’re not the same. And I’m not the same as you. When I pull away, you hold me tight. It seems as I am stuck. But when the morning comes and you are gone, I’m running out of luck. What it tastes like. What it feels like. I can’t really find my way. I just seem to disappoint you. And it leads me astray. We’re not the same. And I’m not the same as you. What it tastes like. What it feels like. I can’t really find my way. We’re not the same. We’re not the same at all.
2.
It’s always raining. It’s seems I’m stuck. And draining out of all my luck. These eyes, they chain me. Growing old. And I can feel my future fold. How could it be so meant to be when I’m so far away? I know you hate me. I’m pretty sure. But there doesn’t seem to be a cure. Your eyes, they chain me and drag me through hell. You think that you know me so well. How could it be so meant to be when you’re so far away? And you will get to see what a wraith that I can be. You will see it all. And all that I can do is point my head to something new. Each day you’re gone.
3.
40 02:49
I’d rather be dead than 40 I know there’s nothing left to see I know there’s no future for me So why keep holding on to this? The more I think The more desperate I get Of this bleeding population Holding on to a double edge of segregation Who do you expect to fill that void? Until it comes down to the rage of a generation unemployed I’d rather be dead than 40 I know there’s nothing left to see I know there’s no future for me So why keep holding on to this? I never thought it’d get so bad But now were stuck inside this mess And I can’t accept this is is the end I’d rather die In full damnation Who do you expect to fill that void? Until it comes down to the rage of a generation unemployed I’d rather be dead than 40 I know there’s nothing left to see I know there’s no future for me So why keep holding on to this?
4.
Up To You 02:34
Oh pretty baby, I cant seem to fit your life that well. Now its up to you, who you let through, through the gates of your own living hell. We call it even. But the traces have never been erased. Now you dance all night and you cry all day and make it seem like you are coming of age. Deal with your own shit. Figure out your own feelings. Stuck in a daydream. Was it worth all of your favorite songs? To give up on who you decided to pretend to be the past few months. I cannot change you. And I would if I had the chance. But your soaking me in your agony. Just stay the hell away from me. If it’s so hard to try your best. Then who’s to blame for all your stress? Would you hide it, would you pass? It’s up to you, it’s up to you.
5.
All The Time 04:36
Nothing great could ever last. But this one is on me and I regret what I have said. I’m here without you now. And I’m at a point I realize, I’d have to ask myself again because I’m not sure of what I’m supposed to do. And I wonder all the time. Wonder if she will be mine. But I gotta know if the time is right on me. I just wander all the time. Thinking back on all the things that we have seen and done. Now its all worth none. Because I’m at a point I realize, pain is never permanent but now it hits quite hard. And I wonder all the time. Wonder if she will be mine. But I gotta know if the time is right on me
6.
Not Again 03:02
Tell me how bad the news is. Tell me I lost my fucking job. Tell me the world is gonna end. Tell me that I’m the one you don’t want. Oh lord, not again. Oh lord, not again. I’m so close, I can taste suicide. Someday I wish I could decide. Right now it’s fucking obvious. I’ll go to sleep, never wake up again. Not again. Oh lord, not again. And I’ll wash and comb my hair that day. I’ll wear my freshest clothes that day. And I’ll keep my scarf right next to me. No other way that I can see. Tell me how bad the news is. Tell me I lost my fucking job. Tell me the world is gonna end. Tell me that I’m the one you don’t want. Oh lord, not again. Oh lord, not again.
7.
I met her at the trailerpark between the first born renegades. Getting kinda nervous now, because I don’t know what to say. She told me it’ll be alright. I guess it’s true. But right I just feel so down and it’s all because of you. I dreamed that everyone was just like you. Will somebody just hear me out because I’m going nowhere fast. Right now I’ve got all these doubts going on inside my head. Wether it is day or night around the world. I just wanna hear her talk, I’m hanging on her every word. I dreamed that everyone was just like you.
8.
Polly 03:45
Fill the void. I can still feel Polly’s ghost. Clear my throat as I am digging up her bones. And I feel the sun burn on my skin as I look up to the sky. And I think of death as something new instead of something that never expires. But it’s alright. I think I like it but I don’t know if it’s real. It once was pure but now I don’t know how to feel. I think I like it but I don’t know if it’s real. It once was pure but now I don’t know how to feel. I just feel so out of line. I make the call. Because I can still hear Polly’s voice. I do it all. Because it seems I got no choice. And every thought I have of her, I carry deep inside me heart. Because I collected all these memories right before it got so dark. Why did it get so dark? I think I like it but I don’t know if it’s real. It once was pure but now I don’t know how to feel. I think I like it but I don’t know if it’s real. It once was pure but now I don’t know how to feel. I just feel so out of line. Since I ain’t got the time.
9.
Forever 03:27
You said that it’s going to rip me open. I said that’s up to you. You are the reason that it’s over. And I am nothing to you. Promise me to never ever let me Cut out his drying eyes. Cause you are mine, forever. You got me to be something that I just don’t understand. As all things, I’m afraid, that this will one day have to end But I don’t care. You said they left me at the front door. I said that’s what you do. You are the reason that it’s over. And I am your only one. Cause you are mine, forever. You got me to be something that I just don’t understand. As all things, I’m afraid, this will someday have to end, but I don’t care. You are mine, forever.
10.
Keep My Mind 02:57
I know how you feel. Like no one cares enough to come and pick you up. And I just try to kill time. But when I do the clock turns around. How do I keep my mind when I’m trying to fight the feeling that’s inside? And I know why you steal my heart. Cause there’s no other guy that you could call and use. And I know what you mean. You say you don’t want anyone to keep an eye one you. How do I keep my mind when I’m trying to fight the feeling that’s inside?
11.
All Hell 02:45
You ask me why I gotta be so dreary. I can’t tell you, I can’t tell anyone. Gotta pay for the things I am hearing. I can’t help you, I can’t help anyone But I gotta be there one more time. To figure out what it is that I’ve been missing. Gotta see how it would’ve all worked out. If I had something to do. All hell breaks loose, and I got it where I want it now. All hell breaks loose, and I’m gonna be alright this time. You ask me why I gotta be so helpless. I can’t help you, I can’t help anyone. And that’s the reason why it feels so senseless. I can’t feel it, can’t feel anything. Still I gotta hear it one more time. To figure out what it is that I have been missing. Gotta see how it would’ve all worked out. If I had something to do. All hell breaks loose, and I got it where I want it now. All hell breaks loose, and I’m gonna be alright this time.
12.
Walking around with a bell around your neck. And you run away when you get the chance. You keep me up with all the things you do. I don’t want you in my room. Hey, you drive me insane. You keep me up with that sound. You keep me awake, awake all night. You drive me insane. You keep me up with that sound. You keep me awake, awake all night. We celebrated when you got locked up. Now I can’t help feeling sorry. You keep me up with all the things you say. And your house smells like an ashtray. Hey, you drive me insane. You keep me up with that sound. You keep me awake, awake all night. You drive me insane. You keep me up with that sound. You keep me awake, awake all night.
13.
Trailer Park 04:55
Somewhere in higher dark, we could be finding love. Here in this trailerpark I met you. And when you grow up to be someone’s accessory. Remember this trailerpark, where you met me.

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released May 26, 2022

Written and recorded by HALF CAB.
Mixed and mastered by Igor Wouterse.

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HALF CAB The Hague, Netherlands

HALF CAB is a young rock band from The Hague, The Netherlands. With the energy of punk and the catchiness of pop, they wreck every town they visit. With roots in punk and hardcore, the guys wanted to try something else and take their underground ethics with them.

HALF CAB has been ambitious from the start and will do everything in their power to live on the road for as long as they can,
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  • May 10
    Groningen, Netherlands
  • May 24
    The Hague, Netherlands
  • Jun 1
    Amsterdam, Netherlands
  • Jun 6
    Zwolle, Netherlands

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